Just when you think you have things figured out, just when you think are in a place that is safe and calm; something happens. Someone says something or does something and it changes how you view things.
Today I got an email and then I got a phone call...and it said...
"You have holiday....we have booked you a flight in the middle of July,,,,,,six weeks leave".
I felt sick, and then I burst into tears, and then I felt sick again.
And now my emotions are all over the place, I am going home.....I'm going home, yes I am, H O M E
And I have to tell him now that I am coming home, and for some reason I just cant do it, and i don't know why.
I know he will be happy.
I know he will be excited
But I don't know why I cant tell him.
So here I sit, withe the little black cat, wanting desperately to tell him, but unable to.